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I'm a 23 year old female with aspergers and I'm so sick and tired of people saying it's a ****ing gift! It has brought me nothing but misery. Everybody else my age has full-time work and a proper adult life, I have nothing and my life is going nowhere. I can't develop a career out of my special talents because I don't have any. There is literally nothing that I am good at. I've tried killing myself multiple times but nothing has worked.

Posted - 03/30/2012 :  19:00:53      

I'm sorry you're so frustrated freya. I can tell you suicide is not the answer. You've been given the gift of life with all its pros and cons. There's no right or wrong way to live. The challenge is to find out how you can first survive... and then find peace and or joy.

Some people live their whole lives and don't find either. Looking within is a good start. What makes you happy?

This is not a superficial statement. Tune out all the bad karma for a while and just "be." Calm is a good thing for starters.

Good luck. You have a friend here. I believe in you.


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Posted - 06/29/2012 :  09:59:31  

Hey, I've gone through some pretty rough times myself and I know how nasty it can be, even if I don't have it as bad as you. But, well, (1) the economy is pretty bad right now and anyone who might have a little trouble finding a job right now is finding a lot more trouble than usual, (2) lots of spectrum folk have trouble finding jobs... so there's nothing wrong with you in particular. It just sucks immensely. And I get sick of the gift stuff too. We aren't magic. We get lonely and hurt and misunderstood.
But keep trying and maybe find a therapist if you can afford it. And a good part of being an adult is acting like one. Take responsibility for yourself and you actions and care for others. Volunteer if you can find that.
If you want to talk, I'm sure there are lots of people here who would love to.
Leah